Category: thoughts

I hate Compas Cable. They have a monopoly on low income communities especially and are able to charge ridiculous prices for an inferior product, and people will pay because they really have no choice, unless they want to go without TV.

Now, they decided to go all digital and if you want all the TVs in your house to work (I have 2) you have to get a digital box for it, and you have to pay for it every month. So that adds more onto my freaking bills.

Honestly I’m going through a rough period and everything is pissing me off in grand fashion. Blow me, world.

The creepy “activity” has died down, thankfully. I can get some sleep. Haven’t really heard the breathing for a couple of nights. Maybe it’s completely stopped. *crosses fingers*

I felt lousy today so I didn’t go to my parents’ for dinner. 🙁 I feel a little off. I dunno.

I have a problem.

For the past week or so, I have been hearing things in my apartment and I’m pretty sure I’m not imagining them. I started hearing the loud breathing about a week ago. Something also said “SHHHHHHH!” very loudly in my living room. I heard the breathing first in the living room, and then in my bedroom. Last night I heard stuff falling in my kitchen, and it wasn’t Oscar because he was on my bed at the time. This all started VERY suddenly, and I think it might have something to do with my encounter with psycho guy. I had kept two of the rocks he threw at my windows, not for any reason, I guess I wasn’t sure what to do with them so I let them sit there. Could that have brought something into my house? I just have a feeling about it. That it has something to do with that incident.

It’s not like this is completely new to me. I’ve had things thrown at me from across an empty room before. Something attacked my cat. I’ve heard things. Weird things have happened. The only place I haven’t had issues was at my first apartment.

However, I was not living ALONE at the time these things were happening. Being alone makes it so much more frightening. Honestly…last night I was so petrified, I was lying there in bed hearing things, afraid to move. I have not felt like that since I was a child. I’m a grown ass female in my 30s. This shouldn’t be scaring me so badly.

In any case, I know a priest, so I’m gonna ask him to do a blessing, and I might get some sage and do a smudging, something I’ve never tried before. I’m not even Catholic ffs. I’m not even a Christian! I gotta do something though!

I was washing my face in the shower and accidentally jammed my finger up my nose. It still doesn’t feel right. ;_;

I am so bored and restless! I wanna draw but don’t have the energy. I kind of just want to go to bed but it’s too early. Le sigh.

That feeling when you download a whole series then realize it’s subbed in French.

Went out with Joanna, looked at adorable baby chicks at Tractor Supply, and ate a piece of pizza bigger than my head. o_o Good times.

I have a sudden urge to read the Ghost Eye and Bunnicula books. I think there’s only one Ghost Eye book, which was a shame. It was beautifully illustrated.

These Haribo Twin-Snake gummies are tasty but they smell like feet

Peer support girl is getting on my nerves again. Yesterday I woke up feeling like garbage, and asked her not to come that day and she argued with me for like 3 minutes. Dude. Just say “okay, I won’t come today.” It’s not that friggin hard. I had to cancel my therapy appointment too. I’ll probably go next Monday and I’ll probably ask my therapist to go ahead and have them switch my peer support person. I had told her to hold off on it before, but I’m kinda done now.

I made ramen a little bit ago and the fucking bowl is cracked and it leaked everywhere. =_=;

Currently trying to make plans for an animation I want to make. It’s basically an animated picture, not a complete animation. Just a drawing with animated effects. I’m trying to figure out where to start on that.

Oh, and Oscar put his foot in my mouth. *spits repeatedly*

I caved and got Discovery Plus. It has a ton of old shows I used to watch, which is really cool. Only thing that sucks is they don’t have Live PD. 🙁

Anyhow, I’m concerned that Oscar’s pneumonia has come back because he’s snorting and sneezing a lot. I’m definitely taking him to the vet.

And I’ve all but given up on my donut. I’m just going to start from scratch.

I am so angry at my donut