Oscar has pneumonia in one lung. The vet only caught it because they were doing another procedure and he hacked up puss when the tube went in. He could have died. I honestly thought he had allergies because he’s always been that way. How the hell long has he had this? Why didn’t I know something was wrong? Am I a bad pet parent or what? 😢

He got a shot and is coming home today. The vet said he was a very sick kitty. I feel terrible. *kicks self*


I’m looking into getting Lasik eye surgery. I am legally blind, can’t wear contacts, and glasses are just a friggin’ annoyance. I’ve been waiting for this since Lasik came out and I finally have the money. It’s way more expensive than I thought but I’m excited 😀

Try to do something nice, get rejected. Story of my life.


I’m trying to settle in to this new place. I have some residual anxiety that’s keeping me from totally enjoying it. Did I mention how much I loathe unpacking? I can’t find shit.

Honestly my day hasn’t started off well and I’m super grouchy.

It always amazes me how people will tell you they like you, that you’re their your friend, and then drop you like a sack of potatoes. And don’t even have the guts to tell you in person.


I move next Thursday. My back is killing me so I’m having a really difficult time packing all this shit. Thankfully I have some help. I’ll post some pics of my new place for the 0 people who read this blog 😀

I feel absolutely rotten. I was shutting the car door and a butterfly flew right into it. Didn’t kill it, but it was injured and couldn’t fly. Mom had to put it out of its misery because I couldn’t. I feel awful. I hate hurting things.

Oscar looks like a giant rat right now. I had him sheared for the summer and his hair has started to grow back, but there’s very short ones and then longer ones, which look kind of…patchy? So he looks like a giant rat. I would take a picture but I don’t think it’d come across well.

Aaaand that was my attempt at writing something of substance.


My Grandma died today. She was in a nursing home where something like 30+ residents and 20+ staff had Covid-19. We don’t know exactly why she passed away. It could have been the virus, it could have been old age, or something else. Dad thinks she will be posthumously tested for covid. I don’t know. Stupid fucking virus…

Anyhow, I’m just very sad and attempting to comfort my mom, which I am not very good at.